You know that feeling of knowledge that you can never go back to the point in time before you did something really stupid and hurtful to someone you care about, without even realizing it? … Yeah, you do. Well, that’s about where I am right now.
I’m pretty riled up about it, too. As in, even if the person in question forgives me, I’m pretty sceptical that I’ll ever be able to forgive myself. And I don’t know that I’ll ever be able to face them again, either, which is the worst part of it all.
Anyway, I’m pretty positive they don’t read this blog so this post isn’t for their benefit or sympathy… I guess I just feel like if I’m ever gonna atone for it the first step would be to let everyone (who hasn’t already figured it out) know what a first-class heel I am. (Which isn’t helped by the fact that my website was made the subject of attention throughout my entire studio only two days ago… if you’re reading this, get back to work already.)
*sigh*
Dan.